[Review] Revlon Matte Lipstick in Pink Pout

I’ve been in a “The Perfect Barbie Doll lipstick” hunt for quite some time now. And my frugal self is not allowing me to buy any MAC products. LOL i don't know. I swore to not buy in that MAC store in Glorietta again due to my disappointment towards their sales attendants. I’d like to rant more but bleh this is not about MAC. BUT should I buy MAC in the future, it would be in the other country.

Moving on, I’ve been seeing a lot of people in the Biz wearing the lovely pink lipstick. They vary from bright pink to sheer pink. Its so lovely to look at even though I loathed wearing pink in my lips before. I own a sheer pink gloss before and I felt like I ate a lechon baboy when i wore it cause its so shiny it added to my oiliness! UGH. BUT cause of media and all, I developed likeness towards it in the end.

I actually failed with my first hunt. I first bought Maybelline in Cozy Tangerine. I thought it looked nice when I tested it but as soon as I went out under the natural lights….UH OH. FAIL. So I don’t really use it very often. Then the likeness towards pink grew deeper and deeper so I decided to find another alternative again. This time I found Revlon’s Pink Pout.

I fell in love with it when i tried it in my hand. It really looked nice under the flourescent bulb. I didn't try it in my lips cause I am very particular with testers. I told the SA to try it on her instead AND guess what she replied? “MAM, bawal po kami mag try” I did a WTF face in front of her and said, “PWEDE KAYA!” I mean how in the hell would anyone know if you have tried it? You are an SA for pete’s sake and that is only a tester. When a customer ask, you respond to it right? geee. If I know she’s akso a germaphobic like me! hahha. srrry for the light rant haha. In the end, she followed me haha.

I tried it with Carmex. It didnt work. The Carmex is too waxy and my lips ended up waxy as well. So I tried without anything and the results are nice!

 

I currently like it! The pictures are with flash so they seem to be reflecting too much light but nevertheless with a full make up on, the lipstick looked great on my skin. I can’t wait to try it tomorrow during daytime. :) But I actually imagine it with a Smokey eyes + pale pink lipstick.

 

Revlon Pink Pout lipstick costs, PHP 475.00 roughly US $10.00.

xoxo

[Review] 78 Color Coastal Scents Palette + “unboxing” my Supersale lootbag

There’s no such thing as unboxing a lootbag cause the bag is not a box lol but for the sake of proceeding, I shall make it as such! I delayed my gratification last night  because I want to touch the bag when I am fully rested and not tired. So I opened it this morning. I also tried out the things that I bought such as the palettes and brushes. In the latter part of this entry, I tried to make a semi-baked eye tutorial. Semi cause its not a full blown tut. Please remember that I am not a pro even though the girl in the Supersale asked me if I am a make up artist hahaha. I told her “I am a so called make up artist” LOL funny. Come join me as I “unbox” my lootbag :)

 

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It’s not that much lol sorry for disappointing you, my shopaholic reader. :) Let us open it one by one.

The zebra bag is the 16 pcs brush set, the covered one in white is the 78 Coastal Scents Palette and lastly Carmex lipbalm.

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Michelle Phan said in one of her YT that this is great and everything that Michelle uses, I use it too lol. And my own verdict is: Carmex is great! ITS true that it soothes, heals, protects. Recently, my lips are cracking due to the cold weather. I used this yesterday after buying it and I can say that right now, my lips are moist and not cracking! Though it has a slightly off  smell its still great for the lips that always crack.

Now for the star of the night!

 

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The ingredients have ALL the three parabens. But I dont know why I don't really care? lol I don't want to spoil the moment. And right now the make up artist in me is kicking in more than the environmentalist/ natural products lover in me. That’s basically what I bought. Only three pieces. The prices are: For Carmex: PHP 80, CS 78 Palette: PHP 850 and the 16 Pieces brush set: PHP 1000. Amounting to a total of PHP 1930. I didn’t hoard unnecessarily. This would be my first make up kit if ever cause I have been using ELF eye shadows for months now. :)

The 88 palette is much more popular than the 78 color Palette (the one I have) I would love to own the 88 Palette in (Matte, Warm and Shimmer) but I realized its not practical. The 78 Palette has a mix of all the colors (Matte to Shimmer and a little bit of the Warm. It also have blushes (the bigger pots) So I guess, I made the right choice for practicality sake! If in the future, I'm going to make make up as a business, I’ll probably buy all of it including the lipstick palette and the contour set. But overall, the CS palettes are all good for those budding make up artist. They have a lot of colors to practice on in relatively small amount.

Lets test the colors, shall we?? (this is sort of a tutorial)

Say hi to my fruity nails! :)

^ # 6 as my eyebrow color. # 7 as my eyebrow highlighter.

1. Used to spread the yellow base and orange outer V.
2. Used as a blender brush
3. Soft Angled brush used for the upper and lower lid and to fill my eyebrows
4. Used to brush my bushy eyebrows

For a detailed colors, I used Photoshop to illustrate: I wish the colors looked like these though! MY Body Shop Primer is not good in brightening the colors. I shall buy a better one next time. See next pictures.

 

FINAL and ACTUAL COLORS:

Put mascara in the end. :) Yes, I didn't put mascara cause this is just a test but it turns out great so I made a tutorial. I also didn't put any black or brown pencil liner or liquid/ gel liner cause I want the green and pink lids to stand out. This is actually wearable everyday. Its not really shocking. cause the yellow – orange – lavender bases are not really heavily applied.

The verdict: ★★★★★ 5 stars! Coastal Scents 78 Color Eyeshadow is so great! It’s a must have for girls who love make up. Its relatively cheaper than Mac and other branded palettes. Unfortunately, you cannot buy it in the Philippine market even in Singapore, Malaysia or any other countries except US. CS is based in US and I havent tried buying online. This is the reason why I really went to the Supersale at the Rockwell Tent because I know that Dollface Cosmetics are there and they sell these palettes. I know that they do not say that their palettes are from Coastal Scents but by merely looking at it, we all know that they are almost the same. Am I right? :)

I cant wait to make another eye creation! Should I start making Face of the Day next time? hmmmm.

 

tadah xoxo

Supersale at the Rockwell Tent – for 2 days!

I was there with another shopping best friend! Sadly only for today but its totally fine cause I have limited my budget to hoarding ONLY Coastal Scents Palette and Brushes and Carmex. So happy cause another wish list done!

Supersale at the Rockwell Tent is until tomorrow so if you are free, drop by from 10am-9pm. It has an entrance fee of PHP 80 though but If you are also into Coastal Scents like me, just go to Dollface – located at the back near the stall selling soaps and another door (i forgot the name!) Dollhouse is pretty recognizable cause they have the Palettes aligned in their stall. And BTW, the PHP 80 has a wonderful pink lootbag (see pic) and all proceeds go to the icanserve foundation.

I'm so tired right now but in the next few days, hopefully I can make my own review of the Coastal Scents or the Dollface eyeshadow Palettes.

Who doesn't like SALES?? :)

And its nice to go back again at Rockwell, still got a lot of pretty faced familiar people. Saw a drama actor, a newscaster, a magazine tv host, a former classmate whom I didnt greet hahaha and lots of Koreans. lovely!

tadah xoxo

All about SKIN and Isotretinoin Update

First, HAPPY NEW YEAR! :)

This would be for my personal records but on January 26, 2010, it would be my 9th month OFF Isotretinoin (Acnetrex) - A potent drug that I took for my nasty zitz last June 2008 till April 26, 2009.

Link to my Isotretinoin History

Consumed 22 boxes and 8 more tabs.

Around late August, I felt my skin was breaking out one by one and I noticed that it only occurs when I am stressed and with no sleep. Its also probably due to the fact that I also stopped putting Adapalene (cause I was stubborn and lazy)

I had another dermatologist by this time because I relocated to the province (But I had no intentions of leaving my previous derm in Makati) so this 2nd derm told me that I have to take more of this drug cause I am complaining for occasional zits. Still haven't decided until now if I will take another course (in lesser quantity)

Then I had my first diamond peel around September. Then another diamond peel before October. Results are satisfactory! Now I can put make up flawlessly. But I need to do more to remove the scars completely. I stopped the diamond peel because I want to visit my 1st derm about my diamond peel procedure. Which until now I havent done yet due to uhh delayed scheduling heehee.

PS. I think it will take me until January 19 to visit Makati again so I will just go and have another diamond peel by Tuesday.

Before the diamond peel I’ve tried several cleansers like Dessert Essence and VMV Superskin 3. But I still stick to Cetaphil until this time.

My regimen during the diamond peel is:

Morning: Clindamycin (spot treatment), Olay White Radiance Old Formula SPF 19

Evening: Adapalene, Whitening Cream (from 1st derm)

When I continued Adapalene and Clindamycin, my zits have improved.

And my regimen at the moment is:

Cleanser: Cetaphil

Morning: *Clindamycin + VMV Sunblock from Superskin 3

Evening: *VMV Superskin 3 Toner (every other day) + Whitening Cream

I dont use the Adapalene anymore cause I want to finish the VMV Toner.

For the (*) asterisk, I dont put them everyday. I have to check my face if it feels sensitive and burning, I stop at least a day until I feel like I can continue putting them again to my face.

Sometimes, I use Apple Cider Vinegar when I feel like I want to rest off chemical products and needed some natural remedies.

Definitely Sunblock is my #1 protection and I cannot bear to remove it to my regimen. Avoiding the sun is a must!

I still get zits like 1 or 2 once in a while but they are controllable. And I notice that I only breakout after putting make up for 8 hrs with no washing of face OR a day/week/month of NO QUALITY SLEEP and POOR DIET.

Oh by the way, I am a semi vegetarian since November of 2008. I rarely have red meat in my diet. I eat brown rice and I drink water a lot. Although I love eating sweets, they are only in small amounts.

And I am also particular with the products I use to my face, hair and skin. If I use a certain hair product, I avoid those with strong fragrances. I also test at least a day to two weeks if its compatible to my face. My hair currently likes the products of Shine Moist (Shampoo and Hair Wax Treatment-NOT the color treated one) and Citre Shine (Conditioner). For my skin, seems like AVEENO loves me because it keeps my skin moisturized and it doesn't give me any zits at all. And as much as possible with cosmetic products particularly with the foundation and face powder, I use hypoallergenic ones like VMV/ Clinique/ Laura Mercier. But with the eye shadow, ELF is ok. Its better to be safe for the foundations and face powders because you put a lot of these on your face as compared to the eye shadows.

Link to the history of my Skin Allergy and Eczema is below which is already cured now (they really crack like el nino).

I don't like to complicate much my skin regimen. If do, then I will be stressed out and as I have said, stress gives me ZITS. :)

xoxo

[Beauty on a Budget] Olive Oil and Egg Mask for Hair

I'm having a bad hair yesterday and my hair is obviously crying out for a treatment. I still have my Shine Moist Henna Wax with me but after trying it for the third time, I think my skin already said stop cause it has been reacting badly with it. (ring: breakouts and itchiness in the scalp)

My skin and hair is begging for an organic hot oil treatment.

That's the time I headed to the grocery store to buy Olive Oil.

This is not the first time I have used Olive Oil for my hair. Its actually a life saver for me few years ago because I, on a very unfortunate event of my life had experience lice. Yes you've read that right, head lice. Got it from using the comb of my infected niece. That was acutally a worst time because they really itch and they are creepy and not to mention the embarrasment from people. Well over the counter products didnt help me at all UNTIL I found Olive Oil and it saved me from these creepy crawlers.

So we move on, shall we?

Olive oil is moisturizing and the benefits are impressive. I shall not be redundant with the benefits because Google will help you do that but overall, the Vitamin E you receive from consuming and applying Olive Oil is a wonderful hair and skin remedy.

Egg is rich in protein which our hair greatly needs. Especially for girls experiencing hair falls. It is equally as good as Olive oil when moisturizing the hair. The yolk is where the protein is.

Both of these adds volume, shine and manageability. Here are the steps in making a homemade hot oil treatment AKA Olive Oil and Egg Hair Mask

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1. Mix 2 Eggs and 4 tablespoons of Olive Oil in a cup. (I unfortunately used one cause thought it wasn’t enough but I was wrong. My hair is really thick!)

 
2. Optional: Add a pinch of cinnamon (lol I dont know why I put it but I read it somewhere that its also good haha)

 
3. Apply into damp hair. (Almost 75% dry) and massage into the scalp.
4. Wear a turban, or a towel to protect it from dripping.

5. Let it rest for 15 mins. Do your chores, do your oDesk job to be preoccupied.

6. Optional: Wash it with 2 tbsp of Apple Cider Vinegar dissolved in half liter of water.
7. Wash again with a light shampoo. Don’t massage thoroughly as it will wash away the moisture from the mask. 
8. Your choice to Blow Dry or Air Dry. Natural is better, imho.

The results?

It's a saved one from being dry, limp and unmanageable hair. It feels light and bouncy. The strands look thick and coated making it shiny.

The Apple Cider Vinegar is essential because I left the mask for an hour and the acid in apple cider will help it wash away the mixture. The funny part is, I noticed a cooked egg white in one part of my strands ahaha. No worries cause it was washed away after shampooing. Apple Cider Vinegar is conditioning too and gives a shine into the hair.

It didn’t smell. Remember, the ingredients will smell only if you put too much.

Definitely will try this again! :)

xoxo

[Review] VMV Hypoallergenics Products

Hey there! I'm taking a quick break to update my dusty *cough* blog. I think it deserves a new product review since the last time I posted is about my oDesk stint.

Here we go!

Being acne prone, I have to take care of my face in my full 100% EFFORT. No LESS. You have to know that already after reading several of my beauty posts. :) So in return, I continuously search for products which are fine and friendly to my skin. Also, I try to purchase those which are readily available in the market. The products made by derm are not convenient for me since I have to visit my derm to purchase it all the time. Plus they are not as big in volume so I resorted in searching for others. So I tried VMV.

{VMV SUPERSKIN LINE}

I purchased the SUPERSKIN 3 line which is for Oily Skin (See Pic) The skin specialist claimed that I have oily skin, I trusted her. The products were not bought at the same time. I tried the Facial Wash first and I must say its a good cleanser. Seems to me like the Cetaphil product. The results are not significant since its only a cleanser. When I finished the tube, that’s when I bought the Toner/Primer (Clindamycin, Phosphate, Retinoic Acid) I also bought the VMV Mositurizer which has SPF 15. I tried the toner together with Cetaphil and didnt buy the VMV cleanser since I felt they are just the same consistency and purpose.

In using the VMV Toner:

Start with 2x-a-week applications
ONLY. Slowly increase to 3x-a-week, then once-every-otherday,
then once-a-day, until you achieve 2x-a-day usage.

I tried the regimen for three times. The first trial, I wasn’t able to finish the regimen because I discontinued it after the advise of my derm. The second trial, I tried it but didnt follow the “start slowly” cliche of VMV since my derm said, I can continue it together with Adapalene. This is what I did: MORNING: VMV Toner, EVENING: ADAPALENE. Result? My face burned. I gave my face a rest until I was able to do the third trial, I followed the regimen completely but nothing happened and I still have darkish-reddish color in my face (an indication of burn) It must be the amount that I put in my cotton pads (cause its almost dripping wet) or it could be that…the product is too strong for me. So I stopped and just continued the Adapalene ALONE with the VMV Moisturizer with SPF 15. Oh by the way, the moisturizer promises a no shine effect in the face but I still have experience shine in my face unless I put powder. It’s probably the humid weather of out country. I am not that raving it but I have learned to like it since its protecting my face from the sun.

The Verdict?

VMV Superskin line is promising. It is a great alternative for the skin’s maintenance. For as long as you know your skin type. In my case, I should have taken the Superskin 2 which is for Combination Skin. Cause I perspire easily, the Sales Attendant must have mistakenly looked at my face as Oily. Which is wrong cause we should know our skin better than the Sales Attendant.

Should I buy it again? Yes for the toner and Moisturizer but with a Superskin #2. The cleanser as I have said is just Cetaphil with a cutesy packaging. 

SIDE NOTE:

Superskin line has coconut oil as one of the ingredients. Somebody in the girltalk forum said that this is comodogenic. As stated in VMV brochure: 

…but coconut oil is pore friendly, nonallergenic,
and its fatty acids are a normal component of human skin’s barrier
— so instead of just preventing water loss, coconut oil actually helps replace
the skin’s lost lipids.

So don’t worry unless you have really tried the product itself and received bad reaction in coconut oil. For me, it’s harmless.

Check the VMV website for a copy of the brochure.

{Next up…VMV Cosmetics}

The first VMV product that I have purchased is their VMV Illuminants Brilliant Finish SPF 25 in Desert. Looking away from its flowery title, its simply a foundation with a big SPF. What can I say BUT I LOVE IT! Being a scarred for life from my past acnes, this product helped me conceal it and it gave me a fine finish and my skin like it so much that it didnt give me breakout even after wearing it for a day. This is the same as their VMV Cheeky Gorgeous-Flush Blush in Cabana Cutie. Again, its only a blush. I like this color very much especially if I want a subtle blush effect in my face. Now after some time, I realized that Desert color is getting too dark for me. Soon after I finished it, I bought a lighter shade refill which is Petal.

The Verdict? GREATLY RECOMMENDED! I like it.

Will I purchase them again? ABSOLUTELY. I can’t wait to try their other products like the eyeshadow, mascara, lipstick and liquid foundations. The only problem is they have less choices of color to offer but nevertheless they are still great!

Before ending, I have to give props also to VMV Soft and Swift Make-Up Remover. Its currently what I am using as I have been trying out a lot of heavy eyemake up recently. *blame youtube gurus* and *thank them at the same time for learning* heeeeheee. I like it so much as it has no disturbing scent. It removes the make up instantly and also gentle on the eyes.

See the pic for the results and the accumulated dirt (with just a one swipe of it!)

Before using this, I was only into Clinique’s Make Up remover until I found VMV. Its cheaper than Clinique’s too!

 

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QUALITY: Great for a Filipino owned product.

PACKAGING: Slightly bulky especially with the Cosmetics line. They include a wallet type of zipped white leather in each of the foundation and blush on. The information listed in the packaging are cute. Since it was typed as if the product is talking to you face to face. There are a lot of words and it looked like a Paul Smith design isnt it? It looks cute and definitely a packaging that makes a good first impression.

PRICE: This is however the only con that I can state. They are quite expensive especially with the cosmetics line. And I heard they increase every month? Well they spend so much with the researches, that’s the reason why they deserve an increase. But as a consumer, the increase doesn’t attract me much. Well if the price continues to be higher than the other OR rather popular ones, I guess that’s the time for me to switch. :)

tada. xoxo

Quick Odesk Update

Too many things happened and along the way, my plans have changed.

An Update about my Hunk Mexicanovela Buyer?

K. After reporting him to oDesk, he suddenly communicated with me. Turns out that our royal hunkness went on a vacation or so because he was too exhausted (probably) to reply after a flight. Well, I still sound interested to work with him during our conversations. Unfortunately due to time difference, we cant seem to put our schedules in one. I have lost interest in him - I mean in the job lol and so I didn't take another effort to catch him on line.

Luckily I was fortunate to have another interview from an interesting buyer. The rate is low but the hours I can render per week is a big chunk.

It was all fast and the next think I know, the buyer hired me. The interview was great because my skills were tested and with less talk more of the “prove yourself'” in a systematic way. So I must say I have proven my worth in this job.

Inner Oprah talking again…

Sometimes you get really excited to work on a new project. You feel so overwhelmingly blessed and you start to become inspired to work immediately. When you have learned the ins and outs of it, your esteem becomes so low. You doubt your skills. From 100% confident to a whooping 200% insecure. What’s up with these unnecessary bubble thoughts in one’s head? If we don't deal with it immediately, those little devils will control us and we become frail and quit – which should not be part of our options. Getting an oDesk assignment is very rare at this moment so we should not let go of the opportunity.

There! Exactly a dilemma I’m in right now haha.

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Why do we want to work at oDesk? It’s another way for us to save am I right? If you are the same as I am, to save is my biggest motivation in working online. I computed the earnings I can get. And…that’s my fuel to keep me going. I accepted another assignment, therefore I will work hard so that I can gain the trust of my buyer. Never give up! even if I have to juggle my errands online and offline.

Get a grip!!!

If you haven't read my previous entry please do so.

Anyway, I have a bad feeling (woot i heard I’ve got a Feeling song at the back of my head as I type that! err)

that my Mexicanovela slash Greek god is a scam.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

WTFWTFTWF. He didnt pay me yet. I am like an angry girlfriend now hahaha – cause he is not replying to me after giving him my articles. argh. and he put me into call forwarding in Skype!

I already contacted the live support and unfortunately they cannot really do anything about the problem unless other providers will also complain.

OMG I felt really betrayed. I will get ready for the divorce papers soon. I should sue him for committing adultery. lol jkjk.

 

Lesson learned? Don't be fooled by those biceps again!!

 

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Odesk update

Hi! :)

See that? I am smiling. It’s not a joke. :)

Well. Today is supposed to be the end of my assignment right? Fortunately or unfortunately, I am not yet receiving a “assignment ended” mail yet. I wonder why. I’ll email my buyer later and ask what’s next thing for me to do.

Overall, I’ve moved on and accepted our parting ways hehe.

The past two weeks, I’ve been blessed to receive several oDesk interviews. Both invited and a reply to my job applications. Yay! Great! take note that I am still meticulous and dont take any jobs that i find uninteresting.

Some of them, didnt reply after one mail. I guess they have chosen other providers but two days ago, another buyer suddenly invited me for a SEO article writing stuffs.

Great. I almost didnt reply. And thank God I did because today, I have talked to him over Skype and he is the perfect buyer that I have been looking for! too perfect that I am quite distracted ahahaha.

Aside from the fact that professionally speaking, he is nice. You see, this buyer is soo distractingly beautiful. LOL. He showed me his website so that I could have good idea about him. I noticed his Flickr account and woow. Really he is wow. He looks like he was taken out from a Mexicanovela. HAHAH.

Anyway enough of the fangirlism. One thing I also like about this buyer is that he never asked me for a lower rate. WHAAAAAT. Yes. He didnt question. The only setback is….omg. I am not familiar with the topic that he wanted me to write about. It’s about constructions, stones…bleh. I will try. Does it follow that he looks like a Greek god and he works in a construction business? He is too good to be true.

Im reading his sample articles and so far because of my excitement, I can’t seem to start. ahahah. I really should calm my hormones.

xoxo

All good things, come to an end

I have received an email from my current and only active Buyer early this morning.

Unfortunately I didn't check my mail right away because I accompanied my mom at the clinic for her annual check up. I didn't bring my laptop with me knowing that I’ll be busy and I wont be able to focus on the task. When I came home tonight, I wanted to work right away. I checked my mailbox first. I saw bunches of messages including the mail of my dearly beloved Buyer. I read it.

The company have decided to let me go because their team is not doing well with oDesk and they cannot afford to pay me anymore.

I really didn’t see this coming. :(

They were my Buyer for 5 months. We started really at a low rate but since the job is consistently done everyday, it was a big contribution to my savings. Due to that, I can honestly tell you that the savings is equivalent to a trip to any South-East Asian country.

Sigh.

It was sad but more of I understand their point of view. If I were in their place and if I need to downsize or anything, I feel I would have done the same…

The main reason I was shocked is, I was contented already and I never thought that the task is going to end. I never pictured myself to stop working at the project even if I have a more stable job anytime soon. It was included in my long term plans. LOL. seriously.

Because my Buyer is a good person. She is a Filipina too and I never felt abused or paid low. Thus the reason why I didnt accept any job offer both in and outside oDesk because I always thought that I have a job with this Buyer and I don't have to ask for more.

Well I am back to zero again. I needed to look for a buyer which will be with me in another months or so.

PS. LOL what a weird way to return after a long hiatus. I was planning for a beauty review but I don't understand why my writers block kept going on for months! LOL. The only thing that made me write again is this oDesk situation. I dont know if I should be happy for that or not. bleh. xoxo

[oDesk] Do you check the background of your buyer?

I do.

Well for most of my buyers. Yes I try to check them out other than their working feedback from oDesk. Let me tell you a story I experienced few minutes ago. Yes. Just minutes ago.

I applied for a very lucrative job posting. The buyer’s payment method is verified, working feedback is 4.43/5.00 (still passable) and the very nice thing is: I can design! Yep. I’ll be using my graphic skills finally. I want to graduate as an administrative support! heh~

The buyer responded immediately. And told me straight ahead that she can pay me below my rate. Note that its not less than 50% – IT IS A 90% DROP OF MY RATE. Hmmm. I'm quite hesitant but immediately relieved to see that I have less than 50 hrs a week to work. Come to think of it, its still a good deal IF I'm guaranteed to be paid for 50 hrs a WEEK. But it didn't work that way.

We exchanged few messages while I checked this buyers background. I read the feedback of his hired providers. I was not that satisfied with the comments. Something is really lacking, i felt. I researched for her name on Google. At first, there are no relevant searches. Until I have clicked a link with my buyer’s name.

At this moment, I am already negotiating about my rate. The buyer obviously doesn't want to talk about it. I am not liking the mood of our conversations. I don't like the feeling that I am not worth my rate.

THEN THIS *ODESK DEPRESSION SUDDENLY HIT ME.

*a relative psychological emotion of freelancers whenever he/she feels inadequate, unloved, unimportant, PLUTOED. Commonly cause of distress are prick, low IQ and EQ buyers.

So my inner Oprah talked to me. Child, No don't feel depressed. This buyer is not worth your time. You know you’re more than that. But of course the oDesk depression didn't stop that way. It only stopped until I found a great information about my potential buyer. Thanks to Google.

In case you didn't notice: There are words like criminal and termination in that website. I wont provide the site name anymore for privacy sake and I don’t believe in attacking because my buyer didn't directly do anything wrong to me.

In short, the buyer’s family members were involved in a serious case. One involves death. Erm ye morbid. I am not sure of the resolution. I am assuming they have changed their company name cause they still have a common word in both their new and old company names.

In short, I don't want to be associated with a company like that.

In short, it was not my loss if my buyer didn’t hire me.

In short, I was able to relieve my oDesk depression.

In short, I'm back again to scouting other buyers. Potentially GOOD and with clean slate backgrounds.

PS. The buyer didn’t reply after my last question. The candidacy has not yet ended but I am assuming it will be after the buyer has found another provider that will agree with her terms.

PPS: The buyer replied but I didn't bother to answer again.

Lesson learned:

1. Know your worth. Don't go way below your rate.

2. RESEARCH. RESEARCH.

3. Don’t Settle for LESS. (I know it sounds like #1 but I really want to stress this out)

4. Call your inner Oprah once oDesk depression strikes!

xoxo